Reflection

All day today I listened to Jason Mraz's album, We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things. It's been a couple of years since I've listened to it, and for some reason this morning it boiled up to the top of my brain while I was buzzing around Spotify for a soundtrack for my day.  Lots of little things like this have popped up for me lately, revisiting old memories and feelings, finding symmetry in the timing in my life, and noticing the cycles I have repeated. Maybe it's from settling back into my old job that I left for a year and then returned, now coming full circle and starting the import seasons over again where I began... it's like I'm back in 2010 when I first moved out here, and everything was so different and new.

Back when I was still living in Arizona and getting ready to graduate college, I used to listen to one of the songs from this Jason Mraz album on repeat - "Make it Mine". It was the first song I listened to every morning on my way to work, and there is one line in the lyrics about 6 lines in, when he sings "Leap and the net will appear". I had never heard the saying before - and it was just one of those phrases that stuck out to me, and helped dampen any fears I had of setting out on my own. At the time I was still really young in a lot of ways and had never truly been out on my own. I was living with my mom while I finished college and still wanted my parents' guidance for nearly every decision I made. I knew it was time for me to go out on my own, and listening to this song every morning fortified that mantra in my mind. Leap and the net will appear... no job, knew only 1 person the area, had hardly any job experience related to my degree, and only had a glimmer of an idea of who I wanted to be.  Most of all, I was fearful of not having a job - I had been working non-stop since I was 17 so I knew no different, and I unfortunately graduated college at the worst point in the recession.  How scary a feeling it was to not have a paycheck on its way! Fortunately, the first job I applied to here in California quickly sent a reply, and my first interview quickly led to a second interview, which ended up being a real offer, all within a week of moving here. On my first day at the office, in true nerdy-Heather fashion, I packed myself a little lunch... and when I went to put it in the fridge, there it was... a little sign from the universe in the form of a refrigerator magnet that said "Leap and the net will appear". Loud and clear, universe... loud and clear.  

Every time I look down at my foot and see my tattoo, I get that same fresh, excited feeling I had when I first moved here. It is my little reminder to keep the fire lit inside me, remember to let my hair down, and always take those leaps of faith to get to where I want to be in this life.