Bad news – I’ve been neglecting this blog. Sorry about that. That’s all I have for the bad news! The rest is all good news… First – I got a new job! There are a lot of wonderful things to say about this, but here are a few main points…
I’m working with Cheryl again! We are totally work soul mates - this is the 4th place we have worked together. It’s really just meant to be.
This line of work is a much better fit for me... mentally and emotionally. Being in a creative atmosphere has awakened so much happiness and inspiration inside of me!
I am not waking up at 5am every day to check my email anymore, or working insanely long days or on the weekends. I have my brain back – I am no longer riddled with anxiety or going 100mph in my mind all day, every day.
I think the best part is that I have been reminded that when things don’t go perfectly at work, it is NOT the end of the world… and it shouldn’t have to feel like it!
Second – in exactly 7 days, Brent will be in California. And not just for a visit – FOREVER.
Pinch me – is this really happening? I am so excited to get to be near each other, and not have to go through the upsetting goodbye process every two weeks. I have been hesitant to let myself get too worked up over this since it would be too upsetting if anything delayed it again. But last weekend when I met Brent in Bakersfield and he loaded a few boxes of his stuff into my car to bring back with me, I think it finally sunk in. That was the last time we had to say goodbye and go our separate ways.
The two of us have accomplished everything we said we wanted to do for ourselves as individuals before we really started living together. We have talked about this happening for the last 5 years or so, and it always seemed a little to me like it would never really happen. But here we are.
I have spent the last few days overwhelmed with how grateful I am to Brent for making this huge leap of faith, and how much I’m looking forward to sharing little things in life together. I’ll get to cook my big breakfasts every weekend for both of us instead of having to over-eat alone… we’ll get to go grab a beer downtown together after a long work week… I will no longer be the awkward 3rd or 5th wheel at every social gathering… all because we will be living in the same place! Now we just have to find Brent a job, and find a place where we can live forever as neighbors, since we are still two very independent people and we know that will never change. :)
Seriously, someone is going to need to pinch me.
p.s. I worry you wouldn't recognize my blog without a picture of Rudybega...